till we meet again, ortho....

bismillah......

tak sangka dah abis posting ortho for 2 months, sekejap sangat rasenyer... ortho saaaaangat best!!! and of course the lectures too...hehe..awesome.... i used this 2 months time given to study what i suppose to study in ortho because we didn't have this rotation anymore in final year, unless we're lucky then,. jumpe nanti pro exam.....masa mula2 start posting dulu susahnya nak wat examination tentang knee, hip, spine, peripheral nerve and so on... but, everything went well sebab ramai kawan kawan yg bantu, we learnt together..

these cute gurls are my ortho groupmates...they are daebakk!!! hehe

harap harap result exam short case dan OSCE hari tu ok... need to improve and practice more because practice  make perfect.... Allah lihat pada usaha kita.. setiap keputusanNya kita harus terima walaupun kita rasa kita dah buat yang terbaik, tapi Allah tahu apa yang lebih baik untuk kita...

right now, i'm starting primary care medicine (PCM) posting for 2 months also whereby we'll be posted in health clinics, being involved in community for sure.. ingat pesan Dr Ng tadi, belajar bukan setakat untuk lulus exam but it is a matter on how you apply the knowledge.. 

p/s: Niat belajar kerana Allah........

Spoiler

I'm so sorry, guys... Today I spoiled your mood.. Is it how to be talkative just to become havoc like that? I'm still wondering.. I am not used to that. Let me be myself, ok? I can't be so happy and excited like you all as if there is nothing happened at home right now..

entry tahun baru

bismillah......

alhamdulillah diberi kesempatan oleh Allah SWT untuk terus bernafas dan bertemu dengan tahun 2013... ikut tahun dah masuk 23, tapi still 3 bulan lagi...:))

2012 dah ditinggalkan..dan apa2 yang telah berlaku, biarkan ia berlalu... apa yang penting kita kena ambil pengajaran, not repeat the same mistake...ingat tu mieza... don't repeat the same mistake..again..

and now,, still left 3 postings more before i'm going to be a final year medical student... takotttt... orang laen da grad pom... tapi takpelaa.. esok dah start posting baru...orthopedic... and i'll going to learn about bones then... mana taw,,interested nak jadik orthopedic surgeon ke suatu hari nanti...huhu..

masa posting kecemasan dulu, da belajar banyak benda.. walaupom hanya 3 minggu.. but, i learnt to do CPR on the real patients.. masa tu, memang tak ada kekuatan dan keyakinan  langsung nak buat, sungguh... hanya tercegat kat hujung katil tengok patient yang tengah nazak,.. kawan2 beratur nak buat CPR... i felt so nervous..and i'm only thinking, can I do it? kalau patient tu mati macam mane? astaghfirullah... hanya doa je yang mampu aku panjatkan... mana boleh macam nie.. kamu kan nak jadi doktor nanti..do you dare to do nothing in front of dying patient? nanti kat akhirat kena jawab kat Allah tentang amanah ini... ajal maut itu di tangan Dia.. kita hanya membantu... then..aku gagahkan hati buat CPR.. masa tengah buat chest compression tu aku minta Allah selamatkan uncle tu...mintak supaya dia sedar balik... tak boleh nak bayang kalau mak ayah berada kat tempat uncle tu...isk..isk..isk..

kami takde cuti semester macam course2 laen... cuti semester kami hanya hujung minggu after exam tu jer... cakap pasal exam, berharap sangat moga lulus semua posting yang da lepas., kalau boleh tak nak repeat.. mana ada student suka repeat kan...usaha, tawakkal doa...


tahun baru, semester baru, azam baru....azam baru?

- nak jadi anak solehah... sebab tak cukup solehah lagi sekarang...
- nak belajar sungguh-sungguh....niat kerana Allah SWT
- istiqamah dah mujahadah..cuba yer mieza..
- tak nak fikir bukan bukan dah....
- dan laen2..hanya Allah yang tahu..



wasalam..:))))

jalan jalan di i-city

bismillah......

yesterday was the awesome day for all 5 of us....we got to go to i-city at shah alam for the first time...huhu... dulu masa duk kat shah alam, tak pulak rasa nak pergi...ingatkan kat i-city ada banyak lampu jer, but its like a theme park...

plannyer nak pi Trick Art Museum jer, tapi alang alang da smpai tu, pegi la jugak tengok 5D cinema and snow walk...release tension after exam... exam SPSS...haha..

....in front of Trick Art Museum....

                                              
                                                                 Dilaaa...be careful !!!!

                                     
                                                                 ...splash the water...

...sooo nice these 3 sumandak...

my heroes...please help me!!!

where are u going, dila????

wanna be Leonardo da Vinci???

jom, terbalikkan!!!

make sure you know how to act with those paintings,.. really nice and seems like real...

jom masuk Snowalk pulak.... main salji kat malaysia jer,, nak gi oversea, memang takde peluang dah...

Snowalk ker snow Run?? huhu..

-6 degree Celcius with those sandals...

sejukkkk...tapi still boleh senyum...

man made polar bear

 beginilah kami after exam....

P/S: ada exam lagi in 3 weeks time! good luck mieza....:)

dunia bukan segala galanya

bismillah....dengan nama Allah Yang Maha Penyayang lagi Maha Mengasihani

its quite a long time i did not visit my blog...huhu..busy la kata kan....

sebenarnya banyak cerita yang ingin diluahkan di sini... tapi, tak tahu macam mana nak mula.. hanya mengarang dalam hati, nak tulis tapi berfikir banyak kali..

Esok dah start posting baru.. posting Public Health and Preventive Medicine ( PHPM) and we are going to do health carnival..yeay!!!.. Time moves very fast actually... dah masuk bulan November dah... tup tap tup tap... dah habis 2 posting sejak berada dalam tahun 4 nie... time is very precious.. every second every minutes.. and what did I do with my time?? terisi dengan baikkah??

As I grow older and older... I realize,  that is a lot of things i did not know..too much.. I try to do my best in everything i did.. we do not know what will happen tomorrow, but we have to plan.. that is my principle. People surrounding put high expectation to me... especially my family. They trust me very much, hope one day i can change our family circumstances for a better life..  Everytime I hear my mom's voice through phone, I felt disheartened...  am I able to achieve her expectation?? Can I pass all the exams to be a doctor in two years time??

That is why I felt so frustrated for the last medicine posting examination.... I never failed before.. I did what I supposed to do as a medical student; studying, going to the ward, follow ward round.. and I restrained myself from watching movies for the whole 8 weeks posting... but then.. Allah knew better.. Kita hanya berusaha, kejayaan atau kegagalan itu hanya Allah yang tentukan... Banyak kali aku beristighfar, minta ampun sebab fikiran tak tenang, tak boleh nak terima....you  can cry, but after that you have to be strong again.. never lose hope... and i just raised this issue during our 'usrah' with final year senior...  and she said to  me,.." Allah itu maha adil,. Allah lihat usaha kita, cuma dia tak izinkan lagi.. Allah nak uji sejauh mana kita boleh terima ujian ini setelah Dia bagi kita nikmat..sama ada kita masih menaruh harapan padaNya lagi ataupun tidak... Dia pasti akan gantikan dengan yang  lebih baik.. jangan sesekali buruk sangka dengan Allah..''  Dan.. aku berasa amat terharu.....

p/s : DUNIA BUKAN SEGALA- GALANYA....

alangkah baiknya

bismillah.......

“Aku tahu rezekiku tidak akan bisa diambil orang lain. Karena itu, hatikupun jadi tenteram. Aku tahu amalku tidak akan bisa dilakukan oleh selainku,. Karena itu, aku pun sibuk beramal. Aku tahu Allah selalu mengawasiku. Karena itu, aku malu jika Dia melihatku di atas kemaksiatan. Aku pun tahu kematian menungguku. Karena itu, aku mempersiapkan bekal untuk berjumpa dengan-Nya.”

- Imam Hassan al-Bashri

Alangkah baiknya jika aku punya rasa yang sama...:((((

yr 4 already

bismillah...

a week after being a year 4 medical student... still lagi tak caye dah taun 4 dah...huhu
Another year to go, a step further to be a doctor.. and a lot of knowledge should be gathered..Insya Allah, dipermudah segala urusan..

Time moves very very fast. I'm still remembered the first day that i entered medical school at uitm shah alam.. the memories are still fresh,. thank you Allah for giving me chance to go further... eventhough i did a lot of mistakes in the past, but He gave me space and time to think what is the reason behind it.. No one is perfect, truly..

currently studying for endocrine modules,. more modules will be waiting for me in the future.. lets face it, Insya Allah,.

and.. next week dah start puasa dah...:)).. semoga Ramadhan kali ini lebih baik lagi....

sama sama muhasabah diri


--- by the way,, still need to stay healthy, tapi sakit tu kan penghapus dosa, tak gitu??---