it almost 3 weeks i 've been in clinical years.. baru tahu susah dan penatnya, tu bukan kerja lagi.. yesterday moments, the day that make me realize who i am.. akan ku ingat hari itu...huhu
we have seminar and i am the one yang kena present. first presenter.... lecturer yg in charge bukan sebarang lecturer..salah seorg yg 'digeruni' dalam kalangan pelajar mahupom lecturer yg laen.. after abis present tuh, she attacked me with questions, unfortunately i couldnt answer... tulaaa... simple quetions pom ko xleh jawab.. dilontarkan dengan perkataan yg 'harsh2'.. hanya Allah saja yg tahu perasaan aku waktu tu... i tak leh imagine if my mom saw that incident... even my friends pom terkedu... she shouted at me.. '' you don't pass this presentation!'' i felt i was too stupid in front of my friends... i dont know what is their impression on me from that day... rasa ingin cabut jer dari seminar tu...
i think positive on what she have told me even in that kind of way.... ''i scold you because i care of you''... i blame myself indeed, not her... walau pepom, i should respect her. She will not act like that without any reasons.. i know that.. .
but, i console myself by saying that, there is no one who is the greatest, powerful, knowledgeable except Allah..and i know He will help me as only He can comfort me...
persoalan: adakah diri ini terlalu dimanjakan dan terlalu di 'spoon fed'???
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